Tea of the Day: Gingerbread by Adagio Teas
Description: Premium black tea from Sri Lanka flavored with sweet gingerbread. Both Gingerbread men and women agree: this unique tea is the perfect addition to any house (gingerbread or regular). Warm and cozy, perfect sweetened or not.
Dry tea smells like freshly baked gingerbread cookies, warm and sweet with a pleasant nip.
Tea actually has little bits of cinnamon bark and orange peel in it
Liquor is a dark, chocolaty chestnut color in the cup
Steeped tea before sugar smells just like the dry tea, like gingerbread cookies. Does not taste quite like it smells, but is warmer and slightly citrus.
Adding sugar makes it taste more like it smells, sweet-spicy gingerbread cookie, and there’s even a hint of vanilla frosting in the flavor as well
Tea Rating: 4/5
If you’ve been reading my blog for any length of time, you’ve probably noticed a trend to my musings.
I write about love and various types of happiness 4 posts out of every 5.
This is not an accident, these are the thoughts that occupy me.
They occupy most of us, I would argue.
Recently, I’ve been reading a book by Brené Brown about something she calls Wholehearted living.
I’m not going to give a book review, or a blow by blow account of what she writes, because there are tons of reviews out there already, and because I feel that her topics are personal enough that you’d get more from it if you actually read it yourself. Her website is here: http://brenebrown.com/, if you’d like to learn more.
What I am going to do is a bit more openly address why I spend so much time talking/reading/writing about love and happiness, and what I think I may have been missing in my previous discussions.
I talk about love and happiness so much because they are tied together, woven into the same tapestry of life. I have always felt the best when I felt the most loved, even when(maybe particularly when) those moments of love came out of a moment of pain or hardship. I truly believe that if your life is absent of love, it will be absent of happiness as well.
There are some things I’m missing, and/or still working on, though.
First off, self love is the true key to being able to love others. I’ve seen it in my own life, and watched it unfold across the pages of my journals and in this blog…when I started truly accepting and loving myself for who I am, neuroses and all, I found that the relationships I had became more real, and more precious.
But I still struggle with it. I still feel like a crazy person who’s just pretending she knows how to do anything but really fails at it and will eventually end up with no one because they deserve better. Not as frequently as I once did, but these thoughts are still there. And they’re hard to talk about because I have no reason why I feel this way, nothing I can really articulate.
So I try to counteract it by putting positive things out there, by deliberately choosing gratitude over despair, but it does sometimes feel hollow.
The other thing I struggle with most is that happiness and joy are not the same thing…and that it’s ok not to be happy or joyful all the time. I can be a joyful person, full of life and wonder, and yet still be sad or angry sometimes. This is because, quite simply, you can’t pick what you feel. Emotions are all or nothing and you literally can’t experience positive emotions if you refuse to experience the negative ones.
This is a scary concept. My darker emotions are sharp and vicious and hungry and makes the inside of my mind feel like a minefield at times. And so, accepting that I have them, and feeling them is normal is stupid hard.
Joy is also not an easy emotion. It can be blistering, like staring into the sun. And, much like staring into the sun, it can throw other aspects of your life into sharp focus, which is sometimes something I’m not ready for.
I want to live a full life, to embrace joy and sorrow both like old friends, but these are the things I struggle with.
What about you?